Depression Diary: Self-blame?

Dear diary

I have been keeping myself busy for the past two days with my new pet projects. One thing I discovered was how easy it is for me to absorb and internalize the negative emotion / feeling from my surrounding. One of my friends that I’m traveling with has been under somewhat intense frustration mode for the past two days, and every time I’m around, I feel very unease and maybe on the verge of anxiety.

I recalled from one of the books that I read on depression about self-blame, and I started doubting myself whether or not this is a self-blame moment. I feel that somehow I am afraid that I’m the reason he is moody that right now. I even started observing small actions that may confirm my assumptions – and there were. Maybe I really need to be alone for a while to clear my head…